surname teacher

Chapter 165 Zhou

The ancient story of the dragon turning back, accompanied by the embarrassing words of the silversmith's wife, actually has a lot of meaning in the end.

After Jin Suoyang listened to the allusion he had heard from Gentiana Qin by accident at the foot of the mountain, and came back in the truck of the old tower, he felt a little indescribable, as if he vaguely recalled something so long ago in his mind. Things that made him almost forget, things that made him not very happy.

It's just that when he thinks about it further, some distant and vague memories seem to have happened in his previous life, but the forgotten memories seem to dissipate like unknown powder on a sand table when blown by the wind.

This reminded him of the strange dream that he always dreamed in the middle of the night for no reason when he just fell into Fan Village from the original time.

There was a bridge in the dream, and those two vague figures sitting under the bridge seemed to agree on something.

But it seems that ever since he and Gentiana Qin started working on the whole day with Jilang going up and down the mountain, he never dreamed of the dream that made him feel so depressed and upset.

Gentiana Qin, Gentiana Qin, it seems to be the name that has surrounded me repeatedly recently.

This thought that suddenly popped up again from the bottom of my heart made Jin Suoyang feel indescribably troubled for two days.

However, it is probably because he obviously has something on his mind. This fact is too obvious. Tonight after having a New Year's Eve dinner at Fan Xi's house together, Fan who drove the naughty and noisy Fan Abao and Yang Hua outside to play in the snow Xi also deliberately chatted with him alone in front of the small courtyard.

And maybe it's been a long time, and there really isn't any suitable person to confide in around me, so I thought about it seriously in my heart, and sat in the patio with the ant old lady who kept shaking the tentacles on her head because of the cold weather. The white-haired young man next to him also frowned slightly and raised his head, then slowly said to the red moon in front of him in a tone that he couldn't quite describe,

"I have been more used to being alone since a long time ago. I don't like to be disturbed casually from the outside world, and I don't think if my world needs any friends when I only rely on myself... But recently, I feel Something seems to have changed a little bit.”

"Oh, what's the change?"

"..."

"Did you suddenly feel that it would be nice to have a good friend by your side?"

"Well, sometimes there are some troubles... But sometimes it seems to be good. Many times, because of him by my side, I feel that the troubles in front of me are not so difficult, and we can still face and find solutions with him fixed."

Because his natural personality is not good at lying, Jin Suoyang, who really felt deeply touched during this time, even if he didn't seem to want to admit it, he still answered seriously with a complex expression.

Seeing him frowning as if he was in great distress, Fan Xi, who with the wisdom of an ant obviously didn't understand what this young man was worried about, couldn't help laughing, and then asked a little curiously. road,

"Then what's the trouble? Isn't it nice to have friends?"

"...Because he's a nice guy who deserves anyone's friendship, and I'm not."

"Huh? What do you mean by that?"

"He has a different meaning to me, maybe because I have never seen anyone like him in my world before, so everything about him is very special and mysterious to me...I see He is the kind of person who is used to being a loner, free and easy and arrogant... But I am different, I am just an ordinary person... There are also many shortcomings of ordinary people, worldly, mediocre, always impatient, temper Not good, I’m always indifferent to people, I don’t like to care about what the people around me think, and I always say things... If I don’t like people, I don’t have all the good qualities that can win the favor of others, And now I've discovered that..."

——As a friend, my purpose towards him...may not be completely pure.

Jin Suoyang, who had a complicated face in the second half of the sentence, inexplicably did not take the initiative to finish it. After all, it was related to the embarrassing question in his heart that had not been fully solved, so he didn't want other people in Fan Village to see it. come out.

And Fan Xi, who seemed not to think too much about other things at all, smiled unsurprisingly, but thought that with a young personality, he really fell into such and such troubles, so from the real life of an old mountain spirit who has lived for hundreds of years, Angle, the gray-haired ant old lady finally gave Jin Suoyang some words of comfort.

"Having friends is a good thing. After all, people can't be lonely forever, like our ants, but they can't leave their friends. When they are unhappy, they just want someone to accompany them... At this time, Whether it’s eating something you like together, or doing other things together, whether it’s boring or interesting, as long as the other party is willing to stay for you, you will involuntarily feel a little different, and even feel a little grateful.”

"..."

"Suoyang, you are actually just worried about whether you will be hurt, rejected or kept away by someone you really cared about again, and then you will be alone forever... It's really lonely to be alone. How can you know if you and the other party can do it if you don’t try it? No matter the result or not, it’s nothing more than an accurate answer, and you don’t know what your friend thinks. If you really have troubles and worries, Why don't you just go and ask him what he thinks?"

The words of the kind, lovely, and gentle ant old lady are not unreasonable. At least Jin Suoyang, who has been upset since Qin Gentiana suddenly left two days ago, has finally calmed down a little. Some.

And since he chose to adopt some of Fan Xi's suggestions in his heart, Jin Suoyang, who has never liked procrastination when he decided on one thing, simply decided to use the most direct way to ask Qin Gentian what he thought to solve his previous heart troubles.

But Jin Suoyang, who had been sitting on the snow since the evening, frowned, and carefully figured out the cause and effect by himself. He waited at the gate for almost half the night before the people came back.

Moreover, he actually directly ignored the existence of such a big living person, and talked to himself to a snowman next to the gate, behaving strangely without knowing what to do.

Such a result obviously didn't even occur to Jin Suoyang himself who was waiting here, so for a moment, the teacher surnamed Jin who couldn't help but deeply doubted how insignificant he was in the other party's heart was also inexplicably a little depressed.

And Jin Suoyang, who couldn't help but twitch his mouth, was also in quite a good mood when he thought of the awkward atmosphere between the two people facing each other after he couldn't help coughing with a cold face and unhappily just now. complex.

But then he noticed that Qin Gentian, who was standing at the door, covered in travel and dust, had come home on the night of the festival, and saw that he hadn't had time to eat dinner, and even his lips and cheeks were a little pale from the cold, which further accentuated his whole portrait The edge of Zhang is extremely sharp and hurts people, but it is actually a piece of white paper that is fragile and pitiful.

Compared with him, the winter clothes on his body were warmer and thicker. After thinking about it, Jin Suoyang frowned uncomfortably. Only then did he take out the snacks that he had prepared for him earlier, and then he frowned and asked dryly after he couldn't hide a certain strange emotion,

"Why... wear so little."

"Ok?"

"Aren't you cold?"

"..."

"You... If you... feel cold, you can sit a little closer to me."

For a moment, I almost thought that I had heard something wrong. Qin Geng, who had a face so inexplicable that he raised his eyebrows, was obviously a little surprised. How could he suddenly have such a cold face as if he had been possessed by someone with his facial paralysis before everyone? , and said such words with this ghostly upper body look.

But Qin Gentiana, who couldn't help raising his head and staring at him, carefully holding the basically broken snacks in his palm, didn't say a word, but his heart was filled with mixed feelings because of his words, but he couldn't help feeling a little uncertain , I even always felt as if from the very beginning, the white-haired youth felt a little... different from before.

After all, I waited in the snow at night on the only way for him to go home during the Chinese New Year, and I noticed that he would definitely not eat when he came back too late, and he seemed to be distracted by someone waiting for him, and he was completely impatient , but the people who are still stubbornly waiting here make a bit of a bad appearance, which makes people have no appetite for snacks.

These strange and abnormal behaviors are a bit too silly no matter how you think about them, and they are not even like the white-haired young man who was always arrogant and cold towards others before, and he was not easy to get along with.

It seems that there is more warmth that will care about others unconsciously. It is very jerky, clumsy, and shy, but at the same time it is really, very serious and honest.

And it took almost a minute to figure out what happened to the Jin surnamed teacher beside him who seemed to be secretly transferred by the Raksha people after he had only left here for two days.

Usually sinister and cunning, he likes to ponder people's hearts, but at this moment, Qin Longjun, who began to doubt his life, squinted his eyes suspiciously and wondered in his heart, is there something wrong with his carefully concealed identity? The fact that he was reported by some cheap mouth, or that he was always quietly sleeping in the middle of the night without thinking about him, and hiding like a pervert to peek at his photos was exposed.

Qin Gentian, with a suspicious and stalemate face, saw the white-haired young man beside him who had been pursing his eyebrows and kept silent since just now, frowning and raising his head solemnly, and met his eyes irritably as if he cared about something. Lips called his name.

"……Gentiana."

"……Um?"

"Can I ask you a serious question?"

"..."

"When I was just sitting there, really... didn't you have any sense of existence for you?"

This way of thinking seems to be very roundabout and weird, and it is also very strange. The question of Jin's surname made Qin Longjun even more confused, so that from Jin Suoyang's own perspective, he can clearly see that he has always been lazy in dealing with people and things. The mature-minded Qin Gentian suddenly became dazed at others, and his eyes turned out to be one pair, which made even his ordinary face look much younger and greener.

And because of this miraculous discovery, the two who had been here for a long time without saying anything, suddenly kept this fairly close distance and fell silent for a while, and then realized that the atmosphere was quite wrong, and then they went their separate ways. Looking aside with a complicated expression, Jin Suoyang, who had the absolute right to speak, spoke first again,

"Can I trouble you to stop looking at me like this, and let me finish...some things with you at once."

"……Um."

After this conversation, the two of them inexplicably kept this delicate atmosphere silent.

Until this strange atmosphere of tension and suffocation that made people blush and heartbeat completely wrapped the two people who couldn't speak a word for some reason behind a sealed space that could no longer accommodate the third person.

Qin Gentiana, who had already clearly realized that certain situations tonight began to turn in a direction he hadn't expected, looked strange, listening to the white-haired young man beside him frown with cold hands and feet, like a man with drooping ears. The big white-haired rabbit lowered its head, and after taking out a Miao silver bracelet that Qin Gentiana could never have imagined, wrapped it in a handkerchief, and then said solemnly and firmly,

"Actually, I just... wanted to talk to you seriously about what happened these days."

"I want to tell you that in the past two days, I have basically dealt with the follow-up of the rooster man and the leopard girl, and the human-faced bird on my face is also healed. The clues given to me by the clay doll and the rooster man said that if we want to find For the Dongshan exit, you have to go to Luochahai City to find the 'port key'."

"I don't know what the 'portkey' refers to, but I searched for the records in the surname book and found that the only way to go to the clouds and the moon seems to be to find the legendary Axiang's thunder car , and seek help from this goddess of the west, so I may find a way to find it recently... I put the seven living souls in eggs and sent them to Mrs. Hen, and they should start a new cycle in the future, My mother's wish is now completely over."

"...Yang Hua hasn't been naughty these days and went to the mountains to play. She has been learning to write Chinese characters with Fan Abao and other ant children in the village at home. She also said that she wanted to show it to you when you came back. She wrote the letter herself, but you didn't rush home tonight, so she sent it to her favorite dragon god in a fit of anger, I think you might want to see what she is thinking about."

Saying this, it seemed that the white-haired young man who had been prepared for a long time also stood up slowly with a little inconvenience in his legs and feet, and walked to the side of the 'Snow Dragon' under the cold gaze of Qin Gentiana, and took out this Under the feet of 'Xuelong' was a plate of red pastry, a plate of white sugar persimmons... and the small note with immature writing quietly pressed under the bowl.

……

[To the most benevolent, smartest and most powerful dragon god in the world, hello, my name is Yang Hua. 】

【Have you had New Year’s Eve dinner with your family today?If not, please take a moment to listen to what I have to say to you. 】

[I will be 12 years old next year. I used to always wonder if I was a fish that Gentiana Qin randomly picked up from somewhere, and where my real family would be, but recently I suddenly don’t want to know anymore. Because the more I grow up, I actually find myself...in fact, I like my current home very much. Qin Yu may not be a good person like Brother Suoyang, but he is always duplicity. I know what he has in mind. I still care about the people around me, so if I find my mother in the future, should I choose to stay with Gentiana Qin or go with my biological mother? 】

[Qin Gentiana seems to have no decent family members in this world except me. Although he looks like a powerful adult from the outside, I know that he is sometimes naive, fragile and narrow-minded than me. He doesn't like others to talk about him. Otherwise, he will get angry. He has a bad temper and is difficult to take care of. He needs others to coax him all the time. How to be nice to the person he likes, but the amazing thing is that now he is also working hard to gradually learn, which to him, is actually very hard and amazing hahahahaha. 】

[Grandma Fan Xi told me and Abao just now that in ancient times, everyone in this world wanted to be reunited with the whole family, but it’s a pity that my father didn’t come back. Members were not able to join together. 】

【I originally wanted to leave him the cakes that Fan Xiqie and I learned to make and the delicious persimmons, but I waited for him at the door for a long time tonight, and this big villain still missed the appointment, so I decided not to keep Give it to him, and give it all to you. 】

[I also hope that you will accept these delicious cakes and persimmons, and continue to bless Grandma Fan Xi, A Bao, Brother Suoyang and everyone in the village next year, thank you, and please also bless my father for a lifetime Happy, I can find someone I like as soon as possible in the coming year and treat him well for the rest of my life~]

【I like the dragon god Yang Hua the most in this world】

This letter from the adoptive daughter, whose handwriting is still very immature and jerky, seems like an unexpected gift from New Year's Eve. At least I have been thinking about whether I should entrust her to Yang Yao, the so-called Qin Gentiana of the same family. Suddenly, he didn't expect it. hesitation.

Because from the beginning to the end, I was very conceited that I could give Yang Hua a stable and comfortable life, but I just forgot that maybe this girl really had the same low self-esteem and hopeless desire to be with him when he was young. Your own true family reunion.

However, before he could think about it and think about the matter of asking the rampant Jieshi to find Yang Yao again, the person next to him just made his breathing unsteady, his blood flowed backwards, and even goose bumps all over his body. The long-winded love sage version of Jin surname teacher started again.

Only Ruzhen was confessed in person for the first time, so that Qin Longjun, who was a little chilled, was even more at a loss, and completely lost his usual "bullying men and women", "doing a lot of evil", and teasing his subordinates all day long. Charming Dragon Lord's demeanor made him look silly.

And if the rampage Jieshi, who had been hurt for a long time by his own dragon king in the Dragon Palace before, saw this scene in front of him, he would probably be dumbfounded, and then rub his eyes to take a good look at his own Dragon Lord, which is rare in a hundred years. Oh...he actually looks embarrassed.

"Like Yang Hua, I also hope that you can always be happy... I know that you have not liked contacting people in the outside world for so many years, and you have many knots in your heart that you can't solve, but if you What troubles do you have, I don't mind spending more time getting to know you, no matter when you need me, I hope that on the other side of the ghost... I can accompany you and say something happy or unhappy. "

"Also, when I went down the mountain today, I overheard the story you told me last time...the story of the dragon turning back from a silversmith's wife. I think it's very special, and it really suits you, so I just... ...bought it."

"I originally prepared these words in advance, but when I saw you and suddenly appeared in front of me, I found that I seemed to have forgotten for a moment what I originally wanted to say to you."

These words are the longest, most thoughtful and most romantic words that Jin Suoyang has said so far in his life. In the first half of his life when he was cold and closed and completely refused to be approached by others, he never had any feelings for another person in this world. Such complex and impulsive emotions that are so enthusiastic that they are willing to actively approach them.

But at this moment, when he confessed and said the truth from the heart to the man who had been with him for a while, he didn't feel abrupt and risky.

Because sometimes, the facts are indeed as Fan Xi said.

It's always lonely when you're alone.

When I'm unhappy, I just want someone to accompany me well.

At this time, no matter whether it is eating something you like together or doing other things together, whether it is boring or interesting, as long as the other party is willing to stay for you, you will involuntarily feel a little different, and even feel a little grateful.

He didn't really worry that after he said what he said today, Qin Gentiana, who was willing to risk his life to jump into the icy river to save him, might never be friends with him again.

He is not really conceited enough to be able to firmly believe that once two people with little entrustment establish such a special friendship that is different from ordinary ones, they will really last forever and overcome the unknown difficulties and obstacles ahead, no matter what happens in the future It happened that neither of them changed anymore.

It was just that on such a boring night in the mountains, when he looked up at the red moonlight on the white snow field in front of the two of them, he suddenly determined with courage that his heart had indeed begun to have a little bit of respect for another person in this world. , he just happened to be able to clearly perceive it at this moment, and he also planned to honestly tell the other party about his liking and... fascination.

"Qin Gentiana, I don't know what these things between us during this period of time mean to you, but in my heart, I understand very well that they mean to me... and everything I have experienced in the first half of my life. It's all different."

"..."

"Whether it's Ah Xiang's Thunder Car or the Raksha Haishi far away in the clouds, I want to go with you to see where they exist and how many mysterious secrets they hide that are unknown to the world. Because for me, you are the only person who can share this feeling and mood with me all these years."

"..."

"I used to be...not a person who can recognize my heart very clearly. I often couldn't do what I wanted to do freely with my heart. I also lacked the most basic courage to live alone, but just like you and It's the same as the story of the dragon turning back I told, because of you, I finally seem to understand the feeling of not wanting to let the one I love suffer from a little bit of wind and rain..."

"..."

"So, I just want to ask you to leave a place for me in your heart. Even before rejecting me, give me a try during this time, and give me a way to like you openly and treat you well." Is your chance good, Gentiana Qin?"

Saying this, he frowned as if he was worried about being rejected, the love words of the white-haired young man with a very serious expression so touching that even the air quieted down, as if the whole place covered by the red moon was quiet.

Beside the wall, before the new year, Yang Hua and Fan Abao buried the delicate roots with snow and soil, so the red winter red flowers that prolong the flowering period for a period of time reflected the beautiful and strong fragrance that seemed to warm the whole winter.

And until Jin Suoyang lowered his head to suppress his nervousness, and waited silently for the answer from the silent person beside him, he almost wondered whether Gentiana Qin, who has poor eyesight, confused himself with the snowman next to him, so that When directly ignoring his carefully prepared confession...

Just like this, he suddenly felt a pair of cold hands that made people feel unstoppably distressed wrapped around his neck as if to vent something.

As if full of madness and possessiveness that was difficult to reveal to him, they hugged him tightly from in front of their bodies, and buried all the sad and sad past in each other's necks so that they would not be revealed again, only giving him this A simple answer that made him smile from the bottom of his heart.

"...um...thank you, Jin Suoyang."

……

——"... Jin Suoyang?"

--"Gentiana?"

……

——"Thank you for the winter safflower."

--"You are welcome."

……

——"I'm really... really grateful to meet you here."

--"Me too."

……

——"Happy New Year's Eve."

—— "Well, Happy New Year's Eve."

……

*【My previous ambition was to be your friend】

【Now between the green mountains and green waters】

【I just want to hold your hand and walk across this bridge】

[On the bridge are green leaves and red flowers]

[Under the bridge is a house of flowing water. 】

[The other end of the bridge is Qingsi]

【This end of the bridge has white hair. 】

——Shen Congwen's "Love Letter to Zhang Zhaohe"

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Jin Suoyang: "Also, Gentiana Qin, I still want to ask you seriously in the end, did I really have no sense of existence in your eyes just now?"

Gentiana:"……"